But it's still not a reason to give up. It's still not a reason to lose hope. It's not a reason to waiver, when courage is all it takes to fight back and change wrong to right.
Courage is my power word this year. The courage to let go of the "I can't"s, the courage to change my story and believe again. Courage is about tackling the fear. The fear of changing a story that you already know the ending to. The tragic ending. The ending that doesn't tell the true story about the relationship.
Today the story turns a new page. A page that helps reflect the relationship and not the tragedy. Today the story reconnects meaning to the relationship. It takes courage. It will take lots of courage as the days pass and the story evolves. Today is the first step towards tomorrow.
Today a new life joins my story. A new life; that in some small part of my heart will soften the hurt. Start the healing. Foster courage. Rewrite the story.
Today Erland (Erla) came home. She's an old fashioned type warmblood with the boxy body and shorter legs. She's an introvert with a real workmanlike attitude and a kind, steady disposition. She's been with her first family and breeders since her birth 6 years ago. She was loved like a family member and that love will remain part of her journey with me. She's green...very green. She has limited walk and trot under saddle but she has a lovely foundation on the ground which will make the transition to riding much more fluid. She proved her strong foundation and good mind when it took no more than 2 minutes to get her on the trailer when we picked her up. There was nothing more than a few sniffs as she hopped right in and traveled quietly for the 2+ hour ride home. She arrived at her new home with her little chin quivering with anxiety. But even though her outward display of anxiety was evident, her mind was calm yet curious.
I will let this part of the rewriting of my story evolve at the pace it needs to heal and stay positive. I will embody courage. I will rewrite tragedy with a new focus on what was gained in the relationship. Thank you Izzy for being such an important part of my story.
Erla meeting her twerpy little brother Stewy
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